Heroine

Coae, you need to stop this. Adica, cacat, te inteleg, I really fucking do, I know where you're coming from, I know where this is coming from.
Si stiu ca stii ca te inteleg pe cacatu asta. Si I can't judge you, I've been there, cacat, I am there. Da in pula mea, you need to stop this shit, man.
You're ruining yourself, you're fucking up other people, some you supposedly care about. And you fucking know it too.
Si, cacat, I know you're fucking up yourself ca you think you deserve it. Si, because you act like shit, you give yourself a reason to deserve it. I know how that fucking works. Da, in pula mea, nu vezi ciclicitatea logicii astea?
Nu asa ai sa gasesti ce cauti. Raspunsurile nu sunt acolo. Cacat, probabil nici nu exista.
Si daca exita, is in tine. Si in tine ai sa le gasesti, nu in oricine te baga in seama destul sa iti hraneasca orgoliu, da nu destul cat sa nu trebuiasca sa muncesti pentru asta.
Orgoliu tau, de fapt frica ta nu o sa se sature niciodata si stii asta. Si dupa ce consumi pe unu, ai sa treci la altu, si it will never be enough.
You won't get better, you may feel better for a moment, you get a thrill si, mai ales, you get to be calm.
For however long it lasts, you're calm, it's quiet. Da tre sa gasesti alt mod sa shut up the fucking voices in your head.
Alea care iti spun ca nimic din ce faci nu e destul de bun. Alea care iti spun ca nu esti in stare de nimic. Alea care au fetele tuturor oamenilor pe care ii cunosti.
Si e bine ca ai vocile astea ca daca nu ar fi frica care sa umple vidul ai ramane doar cu o liniste si cu nimic. Si iti spun eu ca nu e nimic mai infricosator pe lumea asta decat sa te uiti in haul negru si sa fie liniste. Cand pana si fricile tac de spaima.
̮̘̖̳̞̻͙̝ ̙̻ ͈̩͈ ̩̞͖̦̹̹ͅ ̻̻̱̯ ͕̳͚̜͓͕̣̲̯ ̻̳ ̪̪̰̬̦ ͙̖̯̖͍̳ ̲̩ ̥̘̱̗̥̦ ̺̫̼̣̘̺͕̪ ̝̣̞̹̲ ̖̻̟̯͙̞̖ͅ ̪̱̞͍͈̲̞ ͓̬̤͇̭ ̘̜̺͚ ̺̝ ̼̱̜̩ ̙͍̮̜̩̟ ͓̫ ̰͇̯͖̥͉̟͕̦ ̜̣̺̘͕ͅ ͈͕̥̞̳͔̺͎ ̦͔ ͔̺̙̫̟̬ ̙̖̜̖̟ ̮͔ ̝͖ ͙̪̰͈ ̲͇̻̪͎ ͖͖̰̺̹͕̳ ̰͓̺͇ ̻̘̟͕͔̱̮̦ ̺̯̭̱͚̱͖̯
VociZle al̪̭̦̠̲ea̬̣̘̗̺ͅ ͍̤̘c̯̩̬̘͔a̳̞̦͉̯̖r͎̫e̯͉͖͎͚ͅ ̯̤͔̙t͇̩̪̺̠̼e̤̱̰̜͉ ͍̙͓f̞̯̻̥ut̗ ̪̞̱͕l̹͚͕̠̦ḁ̬͔͔͇͖ c̪͉ạ̹̗̯p ̜͍c̭͕o͓͓͉̞ns̖̞̫̰͕̼t̮̯̦͍̯a͚̥͉n̞͚̘t̗ ̱̙̘a̳͓̻͎̬s̪̩͍͈a ̩͓̠i̬̼̼̹̖ͅn͉̼͉̯c̣̮̠̰̯a̹͚̼͈t͕,͚̩̣̳̝̗ ̲o̘̖̺̰͎̙̰ri̥̫̖̺c͇e͙͎̜̰̟̹̟ ̠̬͓͉͖͔v̦͚͈̖̻̤̩o̙͇͖c͚e̖̲͉̫ ̫̜͍̱̺c̥a̞r̗͎̙e̺̝̞̱̺̘ ͈nu̜͕͙̱̣ͅ i̤̻̝̭̮̲̯t̹i̭̮͈̙͍͓ ̤̹͕͙̪̖͕s͚̭p͇̼̜̳u̮̤An̼͔̫e ̝̦̼̺̬̖͇a͔̼͔̥͇s̝̰t̮̻̭a̖̫̫̪̤ͅ,̖͖ ͇͓͉̦̱o͓̟̣͉̤̝ͅri̤̫͈̣̱̯c̟̥̝̻̯e͔̗͕̞͚ ̜̤̣̮̱̤̱v̞o̹̞c̺͍e ͎͙̹͉c̱̝̭͎ͅa̺͚͚̞ͅr̮̖̥̥̣̠e͍ ̫͓̟̞̮̹͚ṭ͉̟e̥̪̜̠̞̪ͅ ̬̻̳̹̥͓ḻ͇͚̲̼̞̦a̞̪u͓͉̥d͚̤̠͕̝̺a̤,͕ c̬͓̹h̜̪̞̩͉̹i̫t̞̬̜͖ ̪̭̳c̭͇͔̖a̙̻̖̤ ̺̫̰͙̩̫t̬͎̪e̙̘̬̦ ̱̭̺̩̺̟ͅm̮͇̟͕̙i̲̤̰̳̭̻ͅnt̬e̬ ͇̞͚̺̰̻͔a̳̺̳t̰a̗͔̻̞̭̫t͚̮̯͕̦ d͈̜͈̱̪e͍͚̹ ͍͉̹g̝̹̭ro̪͓͙̟͓͖s͎͙̝o̻̣̖̤̱͓͔Ll̪͔͎̥a̺̖n̥̘ ̫̟̟s̙̙͎͉͕i͕͇͔ ͕̱͙̬c̥h̦̞͔̞͙̠ḭ̼̰͚̘̣ͅt̜ c̤a̹͓͎̗͖͈̭ s͈͉̘̪̫t̩͉̫̝̣̙͚i̦͖͈̦̺͕i̥͔̯̟͇̰̰ ̙̦̣̟̳̗̠ḁ̦s͉͇̥̭t̩̖͓ͅͅa͔̗͍͙̩̹͖,̬͔̠͙ ̟̯͖̝̙͖o̜͙̯̺̣ ̤̺͈̗s̳̞̖̤̫̭͚a̙̩̬̠ ̙̱ͅf̘̖i̥̞̖̟̩̠͚e̟̮͚͍ ̘̙̣̠̦̟̭de̯s͖̠̭t͈̹̫̟͕u̬͙̣̙͇̬̩l͕͇̤̜.̬͔̘͇ ͇̮̫͎̗
̱̟̯̟̟O ̼̠̞ͅs̹̜̭͈̲a ̼͖̰̭͖͚͚te̗̹̰͔̱̬ ̦ͅa̹͖͉g̻͚̭a̦̟̯͕t̖͓̩͎̰i̺̜͎̱ͅ ̩̖̠̦̗ͅd̜͖e̦̮ ͔̗͉̤e̙̬̦a̜̺̲̩̤͎.̤̰ ̫̗̤͙̮ͅS͙͓̱̗͇͇̱i̦̻̩ ͕̫̙o ̜̤̙͙s͚̩͚̮a ̘̱̱̰̯͖ṱ̮̜̳̰͇͓e ̠̣̝a̟͓̖̜̻͈g̦̱̘Ga̦͖͓̖͖͓̘t̬̠̯̱̞i̜ d͍̤̘̖͕̘̙e͚̘ ̭̦̝̟̝e̯̮a͚̘͉͚̱ ͖o͓̞̞̫̠r̰̙̙͎͉i͖̪ca̝͍̰͚͓t͕ ̭͇̭̬ḓ̤̥͎͖̺e ̬s̫la̹b͓͖͎̻̼̬a͕̖̰̖ ͍̯e͙ ̱̘̟̘͍̮s̲̥̣i̬ ̫̪͙a̻̪̳i ̹͈̙̠͇͎ṣ̯̟̟̥a̗̫̪ ̹̹d̼͍̘͔̞̫e̪̳͉͓̣̗̺v͕i͎̠̹̦͍̱i̫ m̱̙̥͔̩͚͉a̞̺͇i̭͍̟̫͓ ̲̠̹̼s̺l̤͖a͕͈͎b͙̟a͈̗͈̳ ͔̻̳c̼̰̰͍̟̠̙a̞̼͉͇ ̯͙̭͕̟e̮̖̻̫̟ạ̫̞͈̙O.̬̠͎ ̼̟̞S̖̥̪͓i͇͈̟͓͇̠̲ ̠͚̖̥͈͓a̟̯̦̫͕̲j̗̬͙͔̬͍̞u̻͎n̯̲g̻͇i̹ ̬̺̭s͕̯̱͎̪̣a̻͔ ̟̞̱̭n̬̜͍͉̪ṳ̝ ̻̜̖ma̖̹͍̜̻i͕͙͖ ̠͔̫̳͇̫f̰͉̰ͅi̙̹͉͍͇i